i met a girl arnd 9 mths ago.
this 30th wld be our 8th month together and honestly, when i met her, i felt a different sort of feeling that i never felt with any other girl before.
she made me feel at home with her and it was her sincerity shone through almost instantly when i got to have a conversation with her.

we might not have been the most matching of personalities and hobbies or whatsoever. in fact we sort of had steoreotypes and prejudices against each other's interests.

even with such differences, somehow, we just clicked. i never thought i d ever date a a girl like her cos i used to think of them as pretentous, superficial and materilistic sluts. the 3 traits that i hate in people. she never thought she'd date someone from a rock band.

here's the catch. even though we both knew she'd be leaving to melbourne for good in just 2 weeks, we got attached. i dunno what made us do it, but for me, i knew that it was her that i wanted as a gf, a companion and a lover. maybe knowing a person for just 2 weeks wldnt really allow one to make judgements on the person. i mean, how much can u really understand about a person in 2 weeks?

honestly i dont know. but deep down, i knew i could trust her and she knew she could trust me.

what we share is deeper than lovers. i think we share a bond.

i look back at the times we had and sometimes i wished she hadnt moved. cos those times were the best times that i had with a friend probably. the times when time stops for u and the world seems perfect. those times didnt stop when she left. in fact, it still happens a lot for me even up till now.

i wish i cld give her what she deserves. but that can never happen because she deserves the world and all i can offer is my heart.

i ve always wondered what life wld be if i cld spend the rest of it with her. i think it ll be pretty darn good.

sometimes im such an asshole to her and i think someone shld slap me for being such a dick.
but other times, she's a bitch but i could never get angry at her ever.
but hey, who said friends never fight?
fights actually make u grow.

sadly, nowdays i feel things are just so different. its sort of like i dont matter much to her anymore. friends say its someone new ): :shrugs:
i personally dont really know wat went wrong.
i dunno, but maybe all i need is a little security.

but anyhow,
im glad to have such a person in my life.

i love u babe.
forever and ever.