its only 3 days and i miss gillian like mad.
i guess not having her to hug, to kiss, to hold to jst sit down and talk crap with has taken some sort of toll on me.
but jst having to have spoken to her jst now made me warm and fuzzy(yes,yes, i knw i sound gay:))

oh well. its weird when u can actually think of someone every sec of the day. even when u re sleeping. heh heh.

at times, i reminsce about the times we had while she was still in SG. other times i think of the MANY MANY things i jst wanna do with her. the places that i wanna go with her.
and sometimes, i wonder what would life be if she hadnt moved?
or what would life be if i could follow her to her new life in melbourne.
other times i get FUCKING EMO and insecure and wonder if we wld still be able to hold on 3 mths down the road. will we even still be friends?

but most of the time. i m happy jst knowing that im loved by someone. someone who will look pass everything and just love me for me. i doubt that there was anyone else besides my mum that could really love me for me. at least, till gillian.

for those of u who are fortunate enough to have close friends, relatives, parents, partners around you.
pls! yes. PLEASE! do not take them for granted. dont treat them like they will always be there.
treasure them with all ur heart. love them like u ve nv loved before.

look at us.... being pulled apart by fate, but still holding on with hope.
sometimes i really wish she was here with me...

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.


GILLIAN