intense rock sequencing

got approaced by the bassist of rusty nails to join his metalcore band. he sent me some songs and i kinda liked it except for the vocals.... but i declined because i really cant commit and i wouldnt want to slow them down anyway. but what really made my day was that, people actually remember me after seeing me play at gigs and they have the kindness to ask if i would like to play for their band. and sometimes when people chat with me, and they come, hey, how old are u, and stuff like, wow, u re really good for ur age! i really dont feel that way, i dont even think i can be called good. i may be able to play my guitar well, but i dont deserve to be called good... and i m tongue tied as to what to reply them. i wld just smile most of the time.. but in my mind, it would be a blank, like, :what am i supposed to say:

i ve been feeling very down and lost for the past days, i have no idea why, seems that i am just drifting in this world where im the only reality and everything around is just a vision that i create in my mind. i am passing each day without a goal, nothing to look forward to, and no ambition whatsofuck. i am lucky to have a few good friends, in sch, in class, on msn and also a few people who really care about me rather than those who just say hi and hang out with me for whatever reason i do not know. to those people, u know who u are, i may never have said anything to u about how much i love u, but deep down, I LOVE YOU GUYS! right, im feeling mighty gay after saying that.....